i realized, i've actually managed to become friends with people i like, whom i wanted to become friends with. people like jx, mary, jiekai, isabel, etc. though we may not be close friends, we could if we want to, if we try harder.

so i was just thinking. wow. somehow, somewhat, fate brought us together, just like i wanted it to be. however, there are some exception. hr doesnt reply my offline messages, and i have no reasons to sms him. i cant really talk to him now coz he's always busy, and he thinks i like him or sth. so i just tell myself, forget it. when the time comes, it will come.

another exception. i have known him for 2 years, almost. he's always alone, always first to leave to catch his bus number 8. but he smiles and laughs too and is serious in what he's doing. haha. just, independent people intrigues me. it's going to be our last year, so maybe i'll try to find a chance to talk to him.

Happy Chinese New Year. it didn't exactly start out right coz i just missed the last bus to aunt's place. i've got no idea why i want to spend it over at grandpa's place so badly. maybe it's a custom already. partly for the pineapple tarts, for the angbao, maybe? for the atmosphere, or going just for the sake of going. to see grandpa, and grandma before it's too late. i can't imagine the pain of losing a loved one.

speaking of that, my mum's cousin, my.. aunt. she's lying unconsciously in Mount Elizabeth Hospital. room 5267 or something. heard from my mum she's suffering from several illness and has been there for 5 days already. it's new year, supposed to be a joyous celebration... she used to take care of me and pamper me. i remember the feelings. God bless.